Perspective is both a curse and an advantage.
Always see the silver lining, but don't get caught being naive.
Realists shoot me down as reality inevitably does.
I've succumb to materialism with my new job
Yet there are bigger things to save for.
Better yet, I'll get bitched at for a waste of money
And in turn, a waste of time.
I try so hard to live up to these expectations
Only to find there's another mountain to climb.
I am so eager to obtain that level of respect
Despite knowing what I need is experience
And some years under my belt.
I'm still the Leo craving attention
Or am I the girl wanting recognition...
From the one person I used to despise?
I feel lost, all-of-a-sudden plunging
Into a whirlwind of emotion and nostalgia.
No.
More like feelings I've pushed away
Until now.
An anxious grasp is forever squeezing
My heart and also my lungs,
Suffocating the air that would provide a pithy relief.
I am capable of looking ahead
And estimating what I desire to happen.
I am also capable of possessing enough
Ambition to get me to that point.
Only now do I suffer
From the doubt or set-backs.
I just need to keep on pushing,
Hoping I'll pass the mountains
And make it to peaceful hills.
Who knows, they're could be a
Beautiful lake there.
Complacent.
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You don't need anyone's approval. You've already proven what a fine damn woman you are...but I understand the desire, all the same. It's human, I think, to want approval and recognition, since affection and praise go hand in hand with these things most often. There will always be mountains to climb. I'm proud of you for realizing that, and I want you to know that I have faith in you, in your ambitions and dreams. You'll find that lake one day. You're a salmon made for bigger and better things than pools! Lol, I love you.
ReplyDeleteHaha you and your damn salmon analogy, I love it! Thanks, I love you too.
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